Painter Crew Updates

The boys have had another awesome day! Both went up to 8mL on feedings! They seem so much happier now that they have food... Tell me your a Painter without telling me your a Painter 🤦‍♀️🤣 We also got to hold the boys for the first time!!! Philip held Michael and I had Austin. It was all the best emotions and felt absolutely amazing. Michael is so much smaller than his brother, for now!  Here is Michael and Daddy and then by himself.  Here is Austin by himself and with Mommy  and finally our first family photo!! One more because this is our life... Austin flicked me off 

 Hi everyone I just wanted to take a minute and tell everyone how thankful we are for the support we've received as our family has gone through this crazy week. For those who know me know that I am the biggest worrier in the world. I am a "what if ..." person even when the what ifs make zero sense. Philip on the other hand is cool calm and collected.  While I can't say that I'm not still what if-ing my brain has changed since becoming a mom... Still so weird to say that phrase! The person who gave birth in the most dramatic fashion immediately stopped caring about the chaos of the delivery room and immediately switched to "are they breathing? Crying? What's going on?" While I'm still working on recovery myself again thanks to Philip for reminding me that I need to still slow down because ya know I did just give birth. The emotional recovery has been different than I expected.  Was it hard as hell on Sunday when I was discharged from the hospital ...

Just got amazing news from the hospital. Both boys did not have any brain bleeds and now can be laid on their belly, sides etc.!!  They also have stayed on very little "bubbles" as they call them (the apena machine)  And they both decided to pull their feeding tubes out today 🤦‍♀️

 We have learned that both boys love their pacifiers! They love holding your fingers too.  Michael has accidentally pulled his diaper off and managed to pee all over the place a few nights ago.  Austin forgets to breathe sometimes but is really good about reminding himself (this is totally normal in premises)  Nothing but good news from our side today! Boys had a great night and got to go off their chin straps (it forces them to keep their mouth closed so the apena machine they are using actually goes into their lungs. ) And Austin had a small time where he forgot to breathe (super normal as well) but by the time the nurse came to check on him he had fixed it himself! And they were both on the lowest level of air! 

 Sunday June 26 we were was discharged, but obviously the boys weren't going to be able to come home with us. The tears, and the emotions I felt were something I have never felt before and impossible to explain to someone who has never been through this.  I'm planning on using this blog as an information dump. 1) for myself to process what all is going on in our lives  2) to provide updates to family and friends 3) to help me remember what happened from day to day. 

 If you know me or my husband personally...and let's be real if your reading this I'm sure you do.   You'd know that we don't tend to do things "normally". So here's bit of back story... December 2021 we found out we were pregnant over the moon, terrified you name it we felt it.  February 1 2022- we went for our first ultrasound. Where we found out there were not one, but two healthy heart beats... My husbands face went pale, I on the other hand sat up and said "there's two what?! Oh shit..."followed by "what the fuck "  After that we learned of some other complications that could make carrying the twins to full term difficult. But we were doing everything we could!  My pregnancy was going perfect, and there were no signs of them coming early we thought we had beat the odds.  Then came Wednesday June 22, 2022. Woke up around 3am and was pretty sure my water had broke... It had. We went to the hospital where we found out that their N...