Emotional support

 Hi everyone

I just wanted to take a minute and tell everyone how thankful we are for the support we've received as our family has gone through this crazy week. For those who know me know that I am the biggest worrier in the world. I am a "what if ..." person even when the what ifs make zero sense. Philip on the other hand is cool calm and collected. 

While I can't say that I'm not still what if-ing my brain has changed since becoming a mom... Still so weird to say that phrase! The person who gave birth in the most dramatic fashion immediately stopped caring about the chaos of the delivery room and immediately switched to "are they breathing? Crying? What's going on?" While I'm still working on recovery myself again thanks to Philip for reminding me that I need to still slow down because ya know I did just give birth. The emotional recovery has been different than I expected. 

Was it hard as hell on Sunday when I was discharged from the hospital and knew the boys weren't going to be down the hall from me at all times Absolutely. 

Did I cry practically the whole way home? Absolutely. 

Oddly enough we hit a huge rain storm on the way home-like lived in the area our whole lives and neither of us has ever seen it rain like this before. I had calmed down a bit by then and Philip was having a hard time seeing the road. Was it another sign of some type saying hey you've cried enough or was it just a freak situation...? I will never know. But now my brain has switched again to mom mode and how I need to do everything I can from far away to get these boys healthy, strong and home as soon as possible. 



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