Working 9 to 5...9 weeks that is

The boys are nine weeks old! They will receive their two months old shots today, not sure who will cry more...me or them. 

Austin is 6lb 11oz.
His oxygen was dropped to 1L, and he isn't dropping like he used to. Just short ones but is able to correct himself.
He is doing pretty good on the bottle but it's hard work! 
Michael is 5lb 11oz. 
Killing the bottle game he's finished two of his last three but couldn't finish this last one because he was all snuggling and cozy from his bath. 
My patience has been thin the past few days because I'm struggling, why they aren't home yet. I know they need to be ready to go but, try being away from your newborns for the first nine weeks of their lives. They have changed so much. I've missed so many things. I don't have as close of a bond with them, I worry do they even know I'm their Momma? It's hard to be in this situation and until you've been there you can't explain the feelings of hurt, frustration, happiness, and concern that come all at one time.  My phone stays near me 24/7 in case something happens or they call to say someone is able to come home. I'm so ready for the day both can be home with us.

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